"Shy quickly returned to Iraq as a private contractor, compelled by a mysterious desire to 'get back';" after she was the only one from her squad to make it home after the attack she endured as an enlisted soldier. Getting paid more makes it somehow better?
TM is helpful following trama. When practiced regularly, it can help one transcend a lot. I learned it at a particular turning point in my life, and can say it's well worth pursuing.
Anthony - That sounds like an anomalous experience. Do try with another org!